Pictures

I am not one who is great at taking pictures. There are days that I take a lot of pictures and then I can go spans of time without taking any. Today I took pictures. It was such a snowy day. We just stayed in where it was warm and relaxed. We did some school work and just enjoyed each other.

Today was another really peaceful day.They kids did pretty fantastic. My mood stayed pretty level. Once again this morning I prayed for my children. I prayed for my husband. I prayed for my own spirit. I also prayed that the Holy Spirit have his presence in this house. I asked for a shield of protection over our house. Oh how much prayer can help. Oh how much more peaceful things have been.

We painted. We painted hands. We painted squares. We just had fun. It was exciting. We enjoyed the conversation. We enjoyed the giggling. Oh what a glorious day! Praise to the Lord, King of Heaven and earth. Butterfly Girl also painted. She painted with pudding.

I hope you enjoyed your day. I know that I was blessed. I hope you were also.

Be Blessed.

Dany

Two steps forward, 5 steps back

I feel as two steps forward, five steps back describes my life. For many reasons. I feel as though we get on a good routine and someone gets sick. We get control of the behavior issues in our house and then it's on to the next set of behaviors that need correcting. I feel like I make progress in a relationship with one of the kids or my husband and fight breaks out over something silly and backwards we go. It is so frustrating. How I wish life would go perfectly all the time. I understand my examples may seem small to some. I know people that work hard, but loss their jobs or worse their houses. I know people that love their spouse and yet divorce happens. I know my examples are mere inconveniences in every day life. Some people struggle with more then I do. I am not trying to undermine those who suffer in a greater way.

Today I am just simply saying I am tired. I am tired of feeling like I am constantly falling backwards after having experienced the greatness of what moving forward feels like. I am coming out of a time where I though I could do it all on my own. I am once again coming out of another pit of self pity, of bad behaviors from my kids, of a rough patch within my marriage. I am currently coming out of a pit where I wasn't reading my bible or praying because I was trying to do life on my own strength. Silly Me!!! I lost sight of why we home school, of why we do our devotions every morning. I lost sight of Jesus. Silly Me!!

Once again I was reminded that I can not raise my children, cannot be a loving wife, cannot be a good friend all on my own strength. I NEED Jesus!! He alone can do all things. I was also reminded that it isn't just about reading my bible. It is about LIVING my bible. Praying for my husband and my kids. Praying for their hearts, praying for their needs. I need to be in prayer for them.

Today we are back on the path of taking steps forward. We have had the most peaceful morning we have had in two weeks. As I type the kids are all playing Lego's while the oldest makes lunch. I hear laughter instead of fighting.

What changed? I spent the morning in devotions. I spent the morning praying for my heart, for the heart of my husband, and for the heart of my children. I spent time actually letting God's word sink in my heart instead of making it just another one of those things I could cross off my list. That is what changed. I gave the burdens of my heart to the Lord. I feel lighter, happier, more patient. Today is a great day. It came from the Lord and I am going to rejoice in it.

Be Blessed

Dany

Resting in God

So, Its been a while since I have posted again. Its been hard finding time to blog with Kinsley being sick. Not more then a week after getting out of the hospital she was back to feeling crummy. It started Tuesday with a runny nose and she was pulling at her ear. I knew something was wrong. She wanted to be held constantly and was just plan crabby. Took her into the doctor and my mommy instinct was right. We were put on another antibiotic.

By Wednesday her eyes were all green and drippy. She had pink eye. I called the doctor and they said that because she was already on the antibiotic it would be okay.

Friday morning we were set to go in to the doctors for a Well Child visit. That morning she had woken up no breathing very well. I decided to give her a pulmicort and an abuterol. I didn't worry so much since I knew we would be seeing the doctor. Her nose was still runny and she was still crabby. Once the doctor checked her out it was confirmed that she had an upper respiratory infection. We were to continue the abuterol treatments every 4 hours and to start the pulmicort twice a day instead of once. Then we changed from one antibiotic to another and started orapred. Not exactly what I was expecting. I just want my sweet baby to be healthy. She's been through so much. We were also advised by the doctor to keep away from germs if at all possible. These means we pretty much feel like we need to live in a bubble. It is so hard.

So while getting up every 4 hours leaves me tired. While holding, snuggling, and listening to a crying, miserable baby leaves me exhausted I am finding comfort. I am finding peace. I am resting in God. Resting in his word. Resting in the fact that I can share this burden with fellow believers. I am resting in that peace. I am so grateful for that.

Please pray. Pray for healing, Pray for sleep, Pray for us to finish the winter healthy.

God Bless,

Dany

Bah Humbug, turned Joy

Yes, I know it is not Christmas, but that phrase pretty much sums up my week. It was a rough one. Partially my fault and therefore I am going to kick this week out of the water!

I was reminded this morning through Pslams 100:1-2 that I need to praise the Lord with JOY even though personal struggles. Even though a rough day with the kids. Even through a rough nights sleep.

 

{Worship the Lord with GLADNESS. Come before him, singing with JOY.}

Pslams 100:1-2

 

 

My week was rough because I was still catching up from the week of being in the hospital. I was still trying to lesson plan, do laundry, and much more. I also broke my routine of going to bed on time and getting enough sleep. I was grumpy from lack of sleep, the kids were wild without structure, and there was a lot of attitude going on in my house. It was a rough week. Instead of changing my attitude and worshiping the Lord for the good things, I decided I would wallow in my furstrations and be grumpy. Not a smart choice. I had to apologize to my kids more then once, my husband more then once, and ask for a whole lot of forgiveness.

 

I guess those things all make me human. Not any one of us is perfect. I am, however, choosing this week to get back to what I know works well for our family. I am going to stick to our routine, I am going to be on time and getting enough rest, most importantly I am going to choose JOY and GLADNESS over being grumpy. I am going to worship this morning with my children and do it with joy and passion.

 

Happy Monday! Be blessed!

 

Dany