Life Happens

Life happens. No matter what we do to try to stop it or to wish certain things didn't happen, they do.

I wished for a lot of things the past few weeks. I wished I had gotten more sleep, that I didn't have sick kids, that my baby's eyes were perfect. I wished that I never yelled at my kids and that I never fought with my husband. I wished I'd be better at managing my time, at saying no, and at saying yes. I wished I was a better mother, wife, daughter, and friend. I wished I was a better worker, better believer, a better sharer of Jesus.

The past few weeks I have fallen short, as we often do in this life. Fallen short of the things my kids have needed me to be. Fallen short as a believer in Christ. Fallen short in who my husband needs me to be.

This morning I was reminded that God sent his disciples to spread the gospel with nothing. They were to take no food, money, or changes of clothes. They needed to trust that there were going to be people out there to take care of them. That if the cities in which they were heading to were open to receiving His word then their needs would be met. Over the past two weeks I have try shoving my traveler's bag with everything that I can. Discipline, work, school, and more. I have tried to do everything on my own. Not trusting in God, that once we arrive at our destination, be it a bad behavior that needs correcting, or a friend in need, he will have everything there waiting for us to use.

At first when this thought struck me I wanted to yell at myself. Get upset that I was going about the past few weeks all wrong. I wanted to wallow in self pity. I had messed up my relationship with God, with my husband, and with my kids. Ahh, how frustrating. Then I remembered. I could change it! I couldn't change everything, but I could change how I depended on the Lord!! There was a different way to go about life. I knew that. I just got caught up in the devils lie that I needed to do it on my own.

So this morning, I come to you saying today is a fresh start. Today is a new day! How exciting!! We can make a choice this morning to follow God. To trust in his ability to meet our needs. We can make the choice to travel light. To bring no more then ourselves to the table.

It's been a trying few weeks at our house. We will push through. The Lord will hold our family tight. I am excited for this week!