Ups and downs.

This crazy life I live is full of ups and downs. Not only can my sweet baby girl not see she is sick. She is having breathing difficulties. She also has an ear infection. I feel so bad for her. All she has done all day is cry or whine. Nothing makes her feel better. I wish I could take her pain away. I wish I could make her see. I wish I could take all of her sickness away! I went from having a fabulous vacation which was high on happy emotions to another very low point. I am remembering my book. It's all about choices. I need to choose the high road. I sat down and did the dreaded budget. This is one thing my husband and I never agree on and it as o different tonight. The planner in me wants to have all the numbers crunched and if they don't match up I want to have a plan to make up the differnence. He on the ther hand says just lay the bills when they come in. Doing the budget makes me depressed. I hate trying to figure out finances because it never seems like there is enough! So low. So sad. So down. A friend asked today "What one thing are you thankful for today?" It brought emotions I wasn't expecting. I am thankful that I have sight. I am thankful that Kinsley isn't as sick as she could be. I am thankful for doctors who know what they are doing. I am thankful for a new job brought to my husband by my savior! I posted a comment about this job landing in my husbands lap even though he wasn't looking for a new job. Someone gently reminded me that it didn't just land in his lap. My God gave it to him. He knew what we were going to go through and knew he would need a new job. I love this job already. He came home in such a good mood this morning. It's so amazing how the environment of a work place can affect one so much. It was awesome to hear a out his day. So happy. Soaring about all emotions. Smiling ear to ear. We also bought a new car. This brings happiness and stress. We bought it used and whi,e it is truly the best fit for our family and was an awesome deal, we will need to have a few things fixed. This is an up and down feeling. The hills of the roller coaster called life. One dag at a time. My Lord is carrying me through this life. I am going to continue to be positive. I am going to continue to choose to not give up. I am going to keep living in the word of my God. I am going to continue to find strength in him. He will rise above all else. He will be the one I praise even when feeling down. He will reign. Please continue to pray for us. Please pray that Kinsley feels better soon. Pray that emotions here get back on track. Pleas pray that we continue to make our focus to the Lord who saves us. Thank you from the bottom of our hearts for your prayers. I think God tells all of you when we need a few extras because I can feel them during some of my saddest moments during the day. I then feel at peace.

Peace... To an extent

Peace is a hard thing to find on this journey the Lord as taken us down. It is full of what ifs and she wonts. It is full of why us and how can this be. I have managed to find peace to an extent. Don't get me wrong. At the beinning if this week my world was flipped upside down and shaken. I feel as someone took a thousand piece puzzle called life, shook the box, opened it up, and then dumped it on the floor. I'm working on finding the edges of this puzzle. Once I find the edges the rest will slowly fill in. Once I have these edges peace will be found. The edges of my puzzle are God, family, friends, prayers, answers, and good medical doctors. All the edges are in the pile they just need to be found. I need to find peace th my heavenly father. I need to know he choose this path for me and my family for a reason. I need to find all the pieces of his word that tell me he is carrying me through this. I need to trut that my family and friends will be there to support us. Be there when we call. Give us a shoulder to cry on our a ear to hear our pain. They are all in this pile. Finding the ones worthy of being an edge piece is tricky. They have to fit just right so I can find piece in this situation. Prayers. Prayers that I offer up to my father of my own, but also prayers that others offer on our behalf. Answers to my questions. What made Kinsley blind? How bad is it? As I find these answers and come to terms with what they truly are my edges will come together. Good medical doctors are a must. I need to trust the eye doctor and pediatrician to do what is right for Kinsley medically. These are the edges of my puzzle. These are the pieces that are still being found. I have hope. I have my God. After I have the boarder of my puzzle complete I can live life and fill in the picture. It will be a beautiful one at that. The picture on the box shows me a beautiful young girl that can do amazing and wonderful things. A young girl with a heart for God. A young girl who has no vision. Who is blind. The box shows me my daughter. MY daughter! Nothing will change that. I have found peace to an extent. I have been reading these words off a card my husband and I received in the mail. It reads: God holds our lives in His hands like precious stones, polishing each with challenges, choices, and changes. And in time we become shining reflections of HIS purpose, of HIS promise, of HIS love. It brings peace to my heart. It also reminds me that once I'm out of this stage of picking up the peieces, of being polished, I will be shining for HIS purpose. He has a great plan for our family. I can feel it in my heart. Please continue to pray for us. We are far from being over our journey. We are still having good days and bad days. Please pray for us as we continue to explain to our older children about their sister. Please pray for Kinsley. May she grow up having peace in her heart and seeing the Lord even without her vision.

Tears, Prayers, and Hope

Today made our reality official. At 9:15am we went to the eye doctor. In the exam room i felt my body begi to fill with fear. My heart was in my stomach and mu hands were shaking. This was by far the hardest moment yet. Waiting. We got pulled from the waiting room rather promptly. We were in the exam room where the nurse began to do the initial testing of Kinsley's eyes. The nurse talked, charted, shined some lights, move some objects, and repeated. Hopeful to see some change in Kinsley's eye sight wage was just as disappointed as we were. As she got ready to leave she said the doctor will be with you shortly. we waited yet again. We waited for the official news that was going t change our life forever. Thirty long and painfully agonizing minuts lapsed. Finally we hear a knock,knock, knock. If my heart wasn't already in the lit of my stomach it was now. If my hands were not trembeling they were now. If I wasn't already trying to choke back tears I was now. The knock on the door meant there was no turning back. We were about to be faced with reality. In walks the doctor. She smiles. She shakes our hands and tells us how nice it is to see us. Then she asks the question we knew we would hear. "How are her glasses doing?" When we told her there has been no change you could see the worry come across her face. She knew what she was going to have to tell us. She then proceeded to test using all th same methods as the nurse. Kinsley once again failing all of them. The doctor kept watching. Watching in hopes that we may see one slight little hope that there is something there. Watching. Hoping. Then came the news. She startd by saying we would need to take Kinsley for an MRI. The MRI would show why she could not see. Not that it will fix anything, but we need to see where the damage is being done. Then she told us the news. Kinsley culd not see. She was blind. I held myself together. I could not let this doctor see that I was weak. I could not let her know she has just shattered my whole world. She took away hopes and dreams. I finished listening to her talk. Hopeful we would make it through this journey she said we didn't have to do it alone. She told is there are resources, support groups, and people available to help guide us through this uncharted waters. Again she remained hopeful. Hopeful that if Kelly and I surrounded ourselves with the right people we would survive. I'm not so sure. She liken this journey we are on to facing a fear. She said a person who hates public speaking tries to avoid it, but once they do it a few times it gets better. My the times they have done it a bit they actually enjoy it. She said on this journey we will hate the first few weeks or months. We will find them hard and want to try to avoid the truth, but after we have traveled this path a while it will become more tolerable. Tolerable enough to the point where we wil, enjoy the place this journey is taking us on. She shook our hands and left. Out in the parking lot I placed Kinsley in the van. I hugged my husband and cried. My world had been crushed. My world had been thrown of this picture perfect track. I needed his embrace. I needed to feel his warmth and comfort. He has been my rock of strength through this. He is my partner, my love, my support. He was holding me up when I wanted to just collapse to the ground. As Kelly went back to worm I headed back to my other children. They were at my brothers house. Once there I cried some more, not realizing how hard those words would be to hear. We knew it was a possibility. Why was I letting it get me so sad. I got some snuggles from my nephew. (seeing as my brothers kids loves Mario I will refer to his childre as Mario characters) My nephew Luigi snuggles. He is the sweetest boy. He loves Kinsley. And to say he loves Kinsley is an understatement. I got the pleasure of taking Luigi to school where he talked my ear off about the valentines party he was going to have. As I said good bye he played our special little game. He said "bye. I not love you Aunt Dany" and he giggled a sweet giggle. It brought tears and a smile to my face. As the day poured on more people were called, more people offered support and prayers. More tears were shed. More questions were asked and more dreams were grieved. It will take time to heal. I need to deal with reality. I need to grieve. I ended my day by going out for some drinks with my sister in law and a family friend. There they allowed me to share a piece of this pain I am carrying. There they were the best friends I could ask for. There I was able to talk about my pain or the weather. They let me be me. And the loved on my Kinsley! It was nice to they wanted to take the time to spend some time with me on o e of the hardest days of my life. It was nice of them to want to enter into the pain that I'm carrying. I feel as though they each took a piece of my pain with them. That makes my load a little lighter. I am thanking the Lord for these amazing women. They love God, the love Kinsley, and the love me. They touched my heart, sometims the pain of others lives is to much for us to want to enter into. They were not afraid. They entered. They entered with love and support. For that I am thankful. Support has been given today. Resources have been found for us so that in this time of grieving we dint have to do a ton of research. Prayers have been offered for us. Smiles have been given. Hugs have been given. Love has been given. By those things I will rest in peace tonight. Knowing my God loves me enough to carry me through this pain. P,ease continue to pray for my sweet baby girl, our family, and friends and we experience a journey like none we ever imagined we would face. Danyelle.

Angels Over Me.

It was a cold yet beautiful day here today. The sun was shining brightly. Sunday's T our house always start off the same. I get up bright and early to get all four kids up and ready for church. Kelly gets ready and does his thing. Off we go. Today we didn't have our normal pastor preaching. We had a seminary student preach. I wasn't sure what to expect. I am a creature of routine and if that gets messed with I'm not a happy camper. In the after math of it all am I glad that I listened to this man preach. Our message today was about being in community with one another. About taking the time to care for and do life with others. Sounds good right? We are missing something though. More times then not we rush and rush and don't take the time to actually do these thing. This is how Kelly and I have been feeling. We feel like some days we are walking this road alone. Some says we are succluded from the real world because the real world doesn't know how to handle the pain and suffering we are experiencing. This pastor in training brought up something that I have struggled with all week. As a nation we often stop to say "how is it going" to someone without wanting or having the time to listen to the answer. We invite a person to open up and quickly shut them down by looking for the next person to talk to or not really listening. I feel this way lately. I get angry when people ask me how I'm doing because I know they dint really want the truth. The would be satisfied with a fine, or even great. The truth is not that. We are struggling down a path we never thought we would have to travel. If you want to ask me how I'm doing then lets talk about the truth. I can't hide behind a "fine" or "great" forever. And not only did I feel like this message was telling others about how I felt deep inside but it was also reminding me that if I don't have time to hear what's on someone's heart I need to not ask how it's going. A simple "It's nice to see you" will do just fine. This message touched my heart in more ways then one. I felt like the Lord was saying Danyelle I hear you. I know this is what your experiencing. It brought tears to my eyes. The Lord was doing a work in my heart today. I believe I heard this message today because tomorrow we go back to the eye doctor. Tomorrow will determine our fate. Tomorrow will be the decision on wether or not my sweet baby girl can see. Many tears have been shed today. It's truly an emotional process. But I feel oddly at peace thanks to this message. I know I have a community of supporters lifting us up in prayer. I will be heading to bed peacefully tonight. Knowing the Lord holds me in his arms. Knowing that no matter what the doctor says tomorrow Kinsley is mine. More importantly Kinsley belongs to the Lord and he is holding her tight. Tears will continue to be shed and that's okay. They are tears of comfort knowing I won't be alone. Please pray for us at 9:15am that is when we will be in the doctors office. Please pray for peace and comfort as we walk this road.

Reminders

So today has been a busy day that has ended in me laying in bed with a tiny stomach bug. Yes, first we went to breakfast with baby and then had the dreaded taxes done! Shortly after coming home from that I felt my tummy start to churn. I'm feeling better after getting some fluids, some crackers, and lots of rest, but not ready to do to much yet. As I laid in bed today I thought about many things. How our world has changed. How much care Kinsley takes and will continue to take. Feelings of guilt ran through my head as my husband and I plan our mini vacation. My why us God thoughts came wandering back. The devil was attacking my heart and my head. The I remembered many things. Little reminders that others have told me. Reminders I have gotten from my bible. I am not doing this alone. Kinsley is still the same child she was a week ago, if I was okay going on vacation then I should still be okay going now. The Lord has plans for us! Kinsley doesn't know she's "different". The Lord is carrying me through my pain. I have prayers from many people. My God made Kinsley with a purpose! Kinsley was perfectly and wonderfully made. Did I mention I'm not walking this journey alone? I have been having some hard days. Kinsley is not an easy baby. She needs to be rocked, touched, or talked to in order to not be screaming. I have other kids to tend to. A husband who needs me. Dinner to cook, dishes to wash, and laundry to be done. It's a lot for one given person to accomplish. I do it because I am a mom and that's my job. It's hard to say I wouldn't change it for the world. Some days I would. Being the parent of a special needs child is going to be difficult. It will have its challenges, but it is my new life. I think all of the questions I ask myself, all of the what if's are normal. Who wouldn't question a "storm" in life? I have found great peace in my bible. I have found great peace in doing life with others. I have found peace in knowing many are praying for our family. Please continue your prayers. They are so comforting. Danyelle

Three years ago today

Happy Anniversary to me! Three years ago I walked down the isle and said yes to my best friend. Now not every one knows the story, but we dated in high school, went our separate ways, and on this day three years ago become life long partners. Three years ago if you asked us what life would look like now it would not be what it is like now. See I marrived my husband with two children already. He was perfectly happy helping me raise my two children. He didn't care to have any more. After a lot of sweet talking he agreed to have one of his own. So in June of 2009 we became pregnant with our sweet little Myla. He was an amazing dad to all three children. Then when Myla was was six months old I started telling him we should try for a son of his own. He agreed to one more. We tried for a son. We found out we were expecting another child 2 weeks before we left for Haiti in March of 2011. Little did we know we would be having another girl. We love all four of our children. Our oldest has special needs. Our son is the sweetest little boy and so full of life, our next daughter is full of energy and independence. Then there is our sweet Kinsley. Our child who once again turned life upside down. We saw our life camping, riding dirt bikes and quads, fishing, and doing lots of out door activities. While those things can still be done by the majority of our children, Kinsley will not be able to do some of those things. We did not expect to have a child that would have special needs. We already had one. There is no way a family could get two special needs children. Our world has been turned upside down. You surly can have more then ine special needs child in a family. This is not what we pictured life to be like. The reality is that our dreams from three years ago are being rewritten. We will have new dreams for the next three years. We wouldnt change our family for anything. God has provided us with some amazing children! He has provided us with lots of love and support from family and friends. God will continue to provide our every need. God will show us all the things Kinsley can still do with no sight. He will show us how we need to adjust life. God is carrying us through this journey! I am very confident today that the Lord love me, he loves Kinsley, and he lives my family. I believe the Lord brought me and my love together for a reason. He knew we would be perfect for each other while raising this family. I am thankful for my husband. He is my best friend, my rock through this difficult time, and the love of my life. Dany

Hard Pill to Swallow.

To was a deep valley in our journey of of vision problems. I have cried on and off. Here is why: Our day started out pretty much as normal. Everyone got ready to head to school, breakfast had been devoured, clothes put on, and everyone was ready to go. Today was a little different in that I dropped the middle to children off by my mom then proceeded to take the oldest to school. From there I took my sweet baby girl home. Why were just the to of us going home you ask? Very good question. Kinsley had her Early On evaluation this mourning. Some may not know what that is. It is a group of people that work with our county to offer free services that aid parents in taking care of children with disabilities. They came out today to give Kinsley her official evaluation. Once at home I paced the floors waiting for these people to get to our home. I was nervous. We are fully aware that Kinsley can experience some delay in her other areas of development, but didn't want to hear if she was significantly delayed. These ladies filed into our home with their bags and notebooks. The also brought big smiles and warm voices. They were all so sweet it helped to calm my nerves. They all sat down and we got started. Lots of questions were asked, note were being written, and assements were being taken. The more they prodded for answers the less confiedent I was feeling. I felt like I wasn't doing enough for my sweet baby girl. One by one these women told me just how far behind my sweet girl was. With an overall development of a one and a half month old I was sad. At three and a half months I was hoping she was doing better. The vision specialist said that children this age learn 80% of things through visual stimuli. With her vision being compromised that is why she is behind in other areas. Heartbreaking, but the truth, I k we there was no whee else to turn. We needed the services Early On has to offer. Talking to each on of the ladies we set up goals that each of them would work with us on. I say us because they are teaching me just as much as they are teaching Kinsley. We also decided that Kinsley would benefit best with 4 hours of therapy a week. We will be seeing each of four speciality for one hour at a time. We will be seeing a speech therapist, physical therapist, occupational theraist, and the vision specialist. That a lot of people on and out of our house. I am grateful for the support we can be offered through them at no cost. This is a blessing. I'm just sad that I need these services for my baby girl. After all the goals were set and the evaluations were done I was asked a very important question. "What is your support system like?" I said its great. Our parents and siblings are awesome supporters, but we also have a church family at are always there for us. Wondering why she aged such a question she responded like this "Caring for someone who has a disability is hard work. Kinsley will take a lot of time and energy. You need a support system that will feel comfortable taki care of her no matter what her vision turns out to be. You need to be able to trust someone(s) so that you can get out by yourself, with your husband, and with your other children." For those of you that know me know how hard it is for me to let go of control. It will be even harder to let go of that control when it comes to care for Kinsley. Not wanting to burden any one else with her disabilities and extra care I will be more hard to convince I need a day away. I am thankful for a GREAT support system. I know many family and friends praying for us. I know so many friends and family that will help if we need it. I have no doubt that if I need to call on someone they will be there for us. I'm preparing myself for these things now. We leave Kinsley and the rest of our children at the end of a month for a weekend get away. It is scary, but I trust the people my children will be with. I've been mourning. Mourning the way I envisioned life for Kinsley. I've been asking God why us? Why my family? Why my sweet baby girl? I am sitting and listening for his answer. I feel it's okay to grieve these things, it's okay to ask God questions. I know he has a plan for our family. I know he has a plan for Kinsley. He is in control! He is the l Ought of our world and we need to stay focused on him. Please continue to be on prayer for our family. We are mourning the way we envisioned life for Kinsley. We are mourning the delays she is experiencing, but we have hope. Hope in the Lord that she will live a full and happy life. That she will bring great joy to many people. Danyelle

The big day

Friday's are normally my day to sleep in, but today was the big day! Kinsley was scheduled to get her glasses at 9:30am. My van was still in the shop being fixed so I had a wonderful lady from our church pick the kids and I up. Have I mentioned how wonderful the support we have is? Just before this lady came to get me I got a call from the eye doctor. Kinsley's glasses were not in yet. They were due to arrive today, but they wouldn't have them ready before our scheduled time. As much as I didn't want this day to happened I was disappointed. I wanted to get the initial shock and pain of seeing my baby girl in glasses over. I wanted to be able to move on with our new accessory. I never in a million years thought glasses would bring on so many emotions. Once we we got to town I dropped the kids off with my mom and went out with this lady to McDonalds. It was a time for fellowship. A time to be able to talk to another adult. Boy do I forget I need these times. Being a stay at home mom I sometimes get so wrapped up in my kids I forget that I need some mommy time. It was so amazing how much better a felt after an hour if talking. The focus wasn't on Kinsley either. I was asked about my other children and this was huge! Dealing with Kinsleys vision issues I have been caught up. I have been so focused on doing research and looking for the best ways to help her I sometimes forget that there are 3 other kids that need their time to shine. From the bottom of my heart I am so grateful for the time to talk. It helped take my mind off the event of the day. On my way home from this get together the eye doctor called. Kinsley's glasses did come in the shipment they received this morning and wanted me to bring her in at 1:45pm. This was really happening. She was going to get her glasses. I spent some time at my brothers loving on my nephews and talking to my mom. Then it was time to get ready to leave. I got nervous. My knees were shaking, my stomach churning. Why was I feeling this way! I was getting fusterared with myself. They are just glasses for goodness sake! Thats the thing though. To me they aren't just glasses. They are my daughters future. They are the tool that tells us if she can see of if she can't. They are a blessing or a curse. To me they are my hope. They are the answer to my prayer if they work. The are also the pathway to even more questions and sorrow. Once at the eye doctor I cried. It was all becoming so real so fast. They called Kinsley's name. Here goes nothing I thought to myself. Here I stood in front of the counter. Kinsley still in her carseat the nice lady took her glasses out of the case. There they were. Time to face my fears. Those tiny purple glasses were almost to my hands. I didn't want to touch them, but knew I had to. The lady made sure the lenses were clean and then handed them to me, "here" she said, "put them on here so that we know they fit." They were in my hands! Ah, get them out I wanted to scream. This isn't real. My baby doesn't really need them! Sure enough, they were there. I slowly put them on her tiny head. She didn't like them. They were fitting funny because she was still in her carseat. I took her out of the carseat and got them on her face the way they were supposed to. She looked so cute. The purple was the perfect color for her complexion. Her daddy (and yes I said daddy) did a wonderful job picking out the color. I cried a little more Everyone was waiting to see her. My mom, Kinsley's favorite cousin, and her siblings were all waiting at my brothers to see her. People wanted me to send them pictures. It was great to have support. I needed the support. To know I have people surrounding our family in love to get us through these times. Tonight has been rough time. Although I knew I was only kidding myself I was hoping to see instant improvement. I wants the results of the glasses to happen the second I out them in her face. I think as humans we want everything done as soon as possible. I cried. I really wanted to see results tonight. I really wanted to see that the glasses were the tool she needed to see me today. Now I am praying they just work. I am praying that the Lord will make the glasses help her vision in his time. I am reminding myself that God does all things in his time. He is teaching me lessons through this journey. I will continue to cling to my faith in him. Tonight I am going to bed in peace. Peace in the fact that God is carrying my family through the uncertainty that the glasses will work. Uncertainty on wether or not she can see. Please continue to pray for our family. Pray for peace. Pray also for understanding. Understanding for why this is all happening to us. Pray Kinsley adjusts to the glasses. Please also pray that if we get any stares or rude comments that will handle them in a Christ like manner. Dany

Randomness

Today was a very random day. It was unpredictable. In light of trying to keep my mind off of my sweet baby getting her glasses in a few days I took the kids to play at our local church "jungle". It's an indoor playground that is open during the day for the kids. I went with my mom, my kids and my nephews. It was fun to watch them run and play. The boys played a racing game where they would see who was fastest. My youngest nephew and daughter went down the slide more times then I can count. They loved it when I would count to 3 and then say go. What a way to keep my mind on the present. My mom took Kinsley up to the office of the church to show her off to some of the staff/friends there. One of the pastors laid hands on Kinsley's eyes and asked the Lord to heal them. Give her new one. That is my same prayer. Please Lord give her new eyes. Today as been rough in the sense I'm still sad and nervous about what people will say. On the way back to my bothers by van was acting up. Not a stress I wanted to deal with today! It was saying all sorts of things to me. Low levels and to hot. I knew it wasn't good. I let my van rest for a while. On the way home it did the same thing. It was over heating. Lord. Do you know see how much I have on my plate? Do I need a broken van to? At my father in laws house my husband and his dad tried fixing the van. No such luck. Tis left me I a panic. Not knowing when my van will be fixed I was having issue. Kinsley needed to get her glasses Friday. She NEEDS those glasses. It is my hope they help her see. After making a few phone calls I was able to find a ride for Friday and all worked out. I knew it would. I serve a mighty God! Yes I am having a hard time with this journey. It is tough for any parent. We mourn the loss of certain things we wish our children could do. Today I cried because she may never see her own smile, her own wedding dress, her own children if she chooses to have them. I am having a hard time and asking questions of my savior. But I know my savior is in control. I know he is carrying me through this. If I don't ask him questions how will I be able to listen for the answers I need. How can he show me his marvelous plan if I dont ask questions. He is a mighty God. He has plans for Kinsley and our family. Some amazing things are happening in our family despite the vision issues. I hope we can share more with you soon about how God's plan is panning out, but for now it remains a secret. Please continue to pray. Dany

Sight or No Sight? That is the question.

As I sit and stare into the eyes of my baby I can't help but wonder. Does she see me? Will she ever see me? Will she ever be able to see the waves crashing on the beach in the heat of the summer? Will she ever be able to see the snow dancing down from their place in the sky? She doesn't track movement. I try hard every day to get her to track. Every day I stare deep into her eyes hoping she will make eye contact back. Why does this have to be so hard? As we move farther away from the day of her appointment and closer to glasses day things have been up and down. The Lord has blessed me with a baby girl. Perfect in his eyes. Entrusted to Kelly and I to raise. I still question his reasoning. I still mourn the possibility of lost vision. Does this make me a bad Christian? Of course not. It makes me human! I trust he will lead us down the right path. I know he will give us the support we need. My God is a God of miricales and love! Today I am mourning the fact she may not see me ever, but I'm also rejoicing. She is cooing! She laughs. And boy, oh boy, does she smile when she hears her mommy and daddy! Those a moments to rejoice over. We are moving closer to glasses day! 3 more sleeps my older kids would say. (if mommy could get sleep). Friday is the big day. Please pray that the glasses help. Pray that we won't get negative comments or stares about her glasses. Pray that if we do get the negative stuff we respond in a Christ like way. Thank you for your support and encouragement along this journey. Dany