A Breath of Fresh Air

I have been breathing a breath of fresh air around here. I have been very interestingly peaceful. I know my Lord and Savior has it all under control. I finally stoped focusing on all that is wrong with Butterfly Girl and just started deeply loving her. Loving her for her abilities and her disabilites. I have fallen deeper in love with her. I feel like the worst parent in the world to say that I haven't had this connection with her from day one. Don't get me wrong I have ALWAYS loved my baby girl, but the moment I let go of what was wrong and just started loving. Ahh, its perfect. She's perfect! I wont lie though thearpy is overwhelming, appointments are overwhelming, and thoughts of the future as well. Although I get overwhelmed at times I am breathing a breath of fresh air knowing that I need not carry this burden alone.

I have been breathing a breath air over some restored relationships. Relationships that were once there and then gone. Relationships that have come back and I realize what I have missed in life while they were gone. Its funny when your not really sure what caused the wedge to begin with. I have had the most amazing weekend. The most amazing day. Today made me smile to no end. I had great conversation. I enjoyed watching Bunny Girl connect in the most precious ways with my friends husband. He is publishing her a book that he allowed her to write on his computer. Yeah she thinks she is pretty great stuff! And if you know my oldest for her to connect with any male figure is hard. She has had the roughest life and has always feared men. She has always been more stand offish when it comes to males. She snuggled up on his lap tonight and "helped" do his homework. It was priceless.

We are swimming with ideas over here for a project we are working on. Not anything we can share yet as no details are finalized, but we are excited. We feel like we are being called by the Lord in the direction that we are heading.

My buisness, Creations by Mommy, has been doing lots of craft shows throughout our local bracket. We have been having loads of fun. We have been selling quite a few items. It is nice to know that people appreciate hand made goods. It is great to see people supporting their local economy and helping a work at home mom.

Life is swell. Life is amazing. Life is happening because we serve a mighty God! He has carried us through one of the darkest moments in our lives and we are finally coming out of that darkness. We are seeing the light and the blessings Butterfly Girl's diagnosis is having on our family.

Please continue to pray for us. Although we are doing swimmingly well the devil is always ready to attack. He is always ready to bring us down. Please pray that I find the time to do both physical thearpy and vision therapy with Butterfly Girl. Please pray that our appointments with the neruolgist and the Gerber clinic will come quickly and that they will go well. Thank you for your prayers. Thank you for sharing in this journey with us! 

Case of the Weekends

Wait a minute? Where did my weekend go? I thought it was still Saturday. It is right? Please don't pinch me. I don't really want to start a new week. I feel as though the weekend skipped over me.

Today I spent the morning snuggling the kids. We read books and watched a movie. It has been rainy and cold all day. It is not fun. So we did what we could do best snuggle! I stayed in my jammies almost all day. It was great. Although it didn't help me to get a lot done. I also started to come down with something. My Throat hurts, my body aches, and I have a headache. This is not a good thing. I need to get a lot of things done. I have lots to do this week. I have a craft show coming up, I have to help with Girl Scouts tomorrow, and I need to be a mommy.

Please pray that I feel better soon. Hopefully this is just a 12 hour thing. 

May Brings

May has been a month of changes and it just started. May is a time for transition for me as we will start our summer at the end of the month. May also means that OG will be getting another year older. May is when things start to get hotter. May, May, May...

I sit and listen to the rain storm. Fresh flowers bloom, grass grows, new life develops from these tiny drops of rain. Life is the same. As I continue to pour the word of the Lord over my life and the life of my children I see them grow, I see them bloom, I see new ways develop in myself and in them.

May has brought peace. It is odd to me how in such time I can find peace. I have come to terms with Kinsley's condition. We have handled three months of this life we what is another 100 years? We will dominate blindness. We will kick it in the rear and tell it that although it is present it will not bring us down. May brings lots of therapy for K. We are praying May brings sitting, more use of her limbs, and eating solids. We are praying big changes for K in May.

May brings chaos. How can you have peace and chaos? I have peace with K's condition, but chaos will start as OG brings down the school year. We have last field trips, end of the year parties, and graduation. We have parades and picnics. OG thrives on routine so our adjustments from school to home are always rough. I spend a good week mapping out a plan for how the summer will run so that we can be on a routine that fits for everyone. Not wavering from the routine is important.

May brings joy and celebration. OG turns six this year. She is just a joy. We are having a birthday party fit for an aspiring artist. We will have lots of fun. OG was born on my birthday so we can grow older together. Recently OG has matured, she has become this older child instead of still having a younger mind set. There was just a light that clicked that made her see the world from a higher thinking. I am excited as she continues to bring us joy and as we get to celebrate all that her life means to us.

May brings a lot of things. It is certainly one of our busiest months. We may be changing things around here even more. A couple meetings away from being able to announce anything officially, but it is a great opportunity for our family to be blessed and be a blessing. I am so thankful to the Lord for all his blessings. My business (Creations By Mommy), my husbands business (Proper Disposal), and his full time job have all been a blessing. Each one is growing and bringing forth more opportunities.

Pray with us that May continues to go as peacefully as it has been. Please pray that as we continue to seek official report of anything more that might be wrong with K in regards to her vision and in regards to her lack of motor skills that we will stay at peace. Knowing in our hearts that God gave us a wonderfully created child, made in his image, who will do his work, sight or not. Please pray that our transition from school to summer will be smooth. Pray that we all adjust quickly. 

Laughing

Today was fun! Today was perfect. Today was full of laughter. A laughter that I haven't had in a really long time. I still laugh thinking about how hard I laughed.

We headed for Chicago this morning, my inlaws, husband, and I. We wanted to head to the American Girl doll store, Lego Store, and then just shop around. I never knew this trip would be as much fun as it was. Talking and laughing. Hanging out. Holding my husband's hand. Mmm, perfect day.

Every converstation that started as just a simple conversation turned into a mighty laugh fest. The lines from movies my husband and his parents know are more then I can count. All Adam Sandler movies to boot. They know every line of every Adam Sandler movie there is I think. It is funny how they can quote them in 15 seconds without thinking. They had me cracking up at every movie line. The driving of my father in law and his comments while he drove were priceless. He is a funny guy. Toll booths = great laughter, end of story.

My husband INSISTED we eat at Burger King over the road. Completely lost my father in law jumped in with "Oh Yeah lets go eat there even though its out of our way." So off we go. Turns out that its changed a lot since they have both been there. Its now a McDonald's, Subway, and a few other things. It was still fun. This restaurant goes over the interstate. It was fun to watch all the cars drive under us.

I got to see a coal mine on both sides of the road. I got to see the US Celluar Field where the White Sox play. I got to experience lots of traffic. I got to experience love, joy, patience, and kindness.

Everything that has happened with Kinsley is tough! I often finding myself crying more then laughing. Today it was like all the sadness, doubt, and anger has left. I laughed until I couldn't laughed any more. I enjoyed myself so much! I didn't realize how much this trip would bring up my spirits. I feel like I can conquer the world.

I got some sewing done for a very special someone. I didn't get my shoes made last night. Something came up. I feel like tomorrow I am ready to start taking over this house, my sewing, and much more. I will make sure I get pictures soon. 

Ahh, The weekend.

Here we are. Friday Night. Ahh, I am sitting with windows wide open. Listening to the wind breeze blow by and the crickets chirping. All the lovely children are asleep and so is my husband. It is so peaceful sounding. I am relaxed and my soul is at peace.

It is hard for me to feel at peace some days. Today is one of them. I got to hang out with one of my most fantastic friends. We got to talk and enjoy each others company. Hubby got out of work early and the kids spent a lot of time with him outdoors "helping" him work. It was so cute to see.

I am now just anticipating my trip to Chicago tomorrow. I'm going with my husbands parents, the husband, and we are taking K with us. The older kids are staying with a sitter. The one thing on my mind is what cool fabric stores I can find while I am down there.

I'm sure that the men we are bringing along with us would love stopping at a Fabric store right? Okay so maybe not, but I think at least one should be in the books.

Enjoy your Friday Night!

I am off to sew a pair of shoes for miss K. I am thinking of taking pictures along the way and maybe doing a tutorial here to show you all. (If they turn out of course)



Another Day

Today was awesome, but yet discouraging.

I got to spend the day with my sister. I got my whole house cleaned up just like I like it. I was able to just hang out with my kids. I also go some work done for a friend. My husband got out of work early and took Alligator boy to Harbour Freight. They had a ton of fun.

So what was wrong with today you ask? Why am I discouraged. Well, because business isn't going like I had hoped. Like I wish it to be. Its frustrating. I see my husband doing big things. Getting busy. Making good money on his own business and while I am doing those things I wish it was just even bigger. I just feel like I am doing something wrong. He has been in business longer. I also don't have as much time to put into my business as he does being a work at home mom. It just put me in a down kind of mood.

Tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow will be great. I can change my perspective on the world one day at a time. 

Down Time

I spent some time with my sister tonight. Watching movies and just hanging out. What an awesome thing to do. I love how sweet she is. Talking with her has been amazing. We went old school tonight and watched Little House on the Praire. It was sure nice to have some down time. I really need to get to work, but having sat here so long its hard to find the motiviation.